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Those Two Important Red Lines

Have you heard of cryptic pregnancy? Do you feel pregnant but all the home pregnancy tests you’ve taken are negative? I can relate and here is a possible explanation.

Confession: We’ve trying to get pregnant since early 2018. I was gunning for a December 2018 baby.

The Challenge: I’m still breastfeeding my toddler and I haven’t had my period and is clueless on how to track ovulation.

Many months passed and it looked like we would have to wait a while for another child, but we did not give up hope. Mid-October I was shooting an episode for my Youtube Channelwhen I started catching my breath while doing my spiel. It never happens to me. . .unless. . . I’m pregnant. It’s been that way in my past 3 pregnancies.


With the conception date still fresh from my mind, I took to the internet to track my due date. It made my heart leap! I hit 40 weeks on July 9, a day after my birthday! How amazing that would be! My daughter was born on May 2 and had been praying for a baby brother for 2 years when I conceived. Her baby brother came out on May 3, a wonderful birthday gift from God! This time it looks like  I would be the one receiving an extra special birthday gift. How so like God, I thought.


I remembered to get some pregnancy test kits during a trip to the mall. I was in line to pay for them, when the lady at the cashier alerted me that they are having a particular brand was having a buy-one-take-one promo. I decided to replace what I had in my hands. At home, I looked the HPTs (home pregnancy tests) and noticed the manufacture date. It all said: July 9, 2018. There goes July 9, again! All four of them had this date.


So I tested and tested and tested for about 3 weeks. . . All came out negative, except one! This one pregnancy test became positive after 12 hours! Because of my experience with my son’s pregnancy tests, I do not throw HPTs away until much later. You see with Zachary’s pregnancy, I had already thrown out a test as the instruction said not to look at the results after 15 minutes. However, I did a double take 20 minutes later and picked up the test from the wastebasket to find a very faint second line. I took more tests and the line was so slow in appearing and was so faint but it was there. It turned out I was really pregnant. The HCG hormone was just slow to show.


My husband, who discovered the faint line this time around, was ecstatic. I was still half-asleep when he walked in and showed me the test. We checked online and there are indeed women who have the same experience–pregnancy slow to show on the HPTs or no show at all but pregnant. They call this cryptic pregnancy. The scientific explanation is there is hormonal imbalance in the body and it causes HCG to be low. Breastfeeding can be a plausible cause of this imbalance.


Unlike in my previous pregnancies, I do not feel extreme hunger or even a tinge of dizziness. My appetite just became a heartier. No negative symptoms at all except for the pimple on my chin and slight headaches in the early weeks.  Every time I would ask God if I was pregnant, I would come across the word “Rejoice!” in the Bible. I felt He was saying I was indeed pregnant and this symptom-less pregnancy is part of His gift to me.


Weeks past. . . 4, 5, 6, 7, 8. . .


When I reached 9 weeks, there were days I would not feel pregnant at all, except that I now had a bulging tummy. The first time I noticed my tummy while in front of the mirror, I was not feeling particularly pregnant so that scared me! Sometimes I would be tempted to jump or dance my heart out, but I try to control myself.   Still I  was not sure and it was agonizing! I want to rejoice and tell the world but I could not. On the morning of December 5, I took out another HPT and asked God to please, please confirm before the day was over if I was indeed pregnant. It appeared to be negative, so I set it aside and started my day.

When I came home from the supermarket that night, I took a quick glance at the HPT on the table top near the door as I was going to the bedroom and there it was—a faint but detectable second line! God had answered my prayer!


My extroverted daughter could not contain her joy and posted this sign outside our door!



I am over the moon,  grateful for the gift of life. Thankful to be a mom many times over!


This afternoon Mishca and I counted and realized I had been pregnant for 4 consecutive years and will be for 5! 2015, 2016, 2017 and now 2018 until 2019!


Who is like the Lord our God,
    the One who sits enthroned on high,
 who stoops down to look
    on the heavens and the earth?

 He raises the poor from the dust
    and lifts the needy from the ash heap;
 he seats them with princes,
    with the princes of his people.
 He settles the childless woman in her home
    as a happy mother of children. -Psalm 113:6-9


 Dec. 13, 2018

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